The Letter T

How do you pickup the pieces of a life you have thrown away? How do you move forward when you have allowed your surroundings to consume you? How do you stay focused and pursue the life you have all but forgotten about? How do you begin again? Well I can tell you really fast...you open your dusty laptop remember those forgotten passwords, open your blog up and start typing!!! I joined a weight loss program today, bought healthy groceries and pulled out my Turbulence Training guide and am getting ready to figure out a new budget...I will be posting daily again and plan on not being single much longer either... I am integrating some great supplements and exercise and plan on whipping ass!!! 2014 is going to be MY YEAR!!! (it has to be) Happy New Year Folks!!!!

Time for some new words

Pouring my heart out is easy, listening to my own advise is not. I have spent the better part of a year and a half contemplating and trying to figure out how to get to a better state of mind concerning this journey I am on. I am no closer to a solution now than I was six months ago, but I am, however, a tiny bit smarter today than I was then. I don't want to sell any fad or be a celebrity blogger or promote someone else, I just want to be as healthy as I can be/ How do I do that? That is a great question/ I'm going to begin with food/ btw the period button won't work on my keyboard, therefore the slash will replace it/ FOOD SUX/// there is no easy way around it/ It sux/ Yes,it sustains us and fuels us and blah blah blah, but for me it also comforts, rewards, sooths, and helps me to forget/ it SUX/ Especially over the past year/ I am now going to do something quite radical, I AM GOING TO DEVELOP MY OWN MEAL PLAN BASED ON WHAT WORKS FOR ME, seriously people, how much money are we going to throw away to weight loss companies that change their programs every year just to get you to spend more? tHe work is easy, choose foods I like, lean meats and fish, cheese, yogurts fruits and veggies/ drink only water stay away from added sugar and artificial sweetners, avoid pasta, rice, bread, cereals, and proccessed foods, no soda or carby desserts/ Eat often, I am now eating for weight loss again, breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, snack that's it/ EXERCISE ROX/ it flippin ROX AND WE DON'T EVEN KNOW IT// my workout is simple, follow one that is built by a pro and use it/ Follow the workout word for word and don't expect same day result, Be reasonable, and be careful/ i will begin my workouts each day upon rising, Then, througout my day I will dedicate two hours to physical activity this activity should also serve to curb my appetite and cravings to snack/ WORK IS WORK/ it is getting better, I credit work with my weight gain,even though i know it runs deeper than work/ Having said that, my job is getting easier and my client base is getting stronger,no more excuses/ FRIENDSHIPS CHANGE/ Over the past year my core group of friends has changed, I see now that the ones Ifelt closest too, barely knew I existed, It's bullshit to finally realize this, and extremely painful/ i have to use this sadness to push myself harder/ I promise myself to never again allow two or three people to hurt me so badly that I let it tear me down into an even deeper place, Shame on you, you know who you are/ GOD IS AMAZING/ yes, HE is, i used to be worried that acknowledging any specific reliigeon would alienate others, but I need the world to know, i turned to God,and HE forgave me/ So beginniing right now, I am putting myself first, and fixing this mess/