Getting back to Good!!!

Hi everyone!!! I am BACK!!!!
I hope everyone has had a great few weeks. Mine have been…stressful, But not totally bad.
After my Grandmother died I took some time off from blogging and took some time to focus more on work and put my program on the back burner. BIG MISTAKE!!!!
I have gained about thirty pounds back… I lost all control of my eating and exercise program and feel like crap for it! My clothes stopped fitting and I am feeling miserable!!! ENOUGH!!!!!
Two weeks ago I began slowly working out again and am trying very hard to get back to good.
I quit my second job and am working at the salon full time now, I am keeping my fingers crossed that this whole thing works out!
Have you ever lost control before? I have come to understand that the reason this is happening is not that I stopped caring, it’s that I became too used to things going well that I stopped tracking what I was eating, I stopped feeling the need to work out and once I began to fit into the clothes I liked, I stopped trying to lose weight…
So I have done a good job at planning out my day, food wise, but I will be damned if the new gas station in Boiling Springs isn’t selling pastries for $.19 a piece, DAMN YOU QT!!!!! I am making a conscious effort to stay the heck away from that place, but it is hard, especially when I have been consuming more sugar than usual and I am craving more sugar to supplement as I get hungry. This is how my weight gain begins!
I have started with oatmeal and yogurt and veggie juice during the day and a nice sized meal at night. I have to remember what it feels like to win small victories over this eating disorder, and not give up half way through each day. When I give up, I over eat and then I over eat for days!
So I have decided that I am going to start blogging everyday and be honest with my readers about what I eat and how I work out. I have to get back to good folks; I came too far to let it all completely unravel…
SO…keep yelling at me when I order French fries at the restaurant and keep asking me if I really need that cookie, keep telling me I should order a regular coffee instead of a Chai Latte, and please, please…KEEP READING… I am not going to let this fat return without a fight!!!

On the bright side, I am doing very good in other aspects of my life…I am seeing someone new, I am getting busier and busier at work, and life is getting better and better, Cesalee is doing great and the holidays are going to be magical!!! I just need to get this whole thing under control again!
OK, enough about me, let me know how you all have been doing with the Journey you have been on…Are you still trudging forward? Or have you been stuck at a four way like me?
I love and have missed you all!!!! Let’s do this damn thing!!!