SO I have spent a large part of my life dealing with something that actually makes me, a greown ass man cry at night. It keeps me awake, it hurts me to my core,it offends me, it makes me regret being born sometimes. The worst part of all of this....It should not bother me it all. It is who I am and it is What I am and I have spent my life running from it!
No, it's not my weight, it's not my Cancer, It's not my failed marriage or my beautiful son that died. It is not my distance (geographic) from Cesalee, it is not my thinning hair... It's a secret, one most of you now know, but it's still a secret to many... Most people figure it out when thety meet me, some don't. Alot of people could care less, Thety accept me regardless, some don't... But it's still a secret.
It's also a sin...even though I know that no one sin is worse than another, it is still a sin, but I am committing another sin by lying about this secret to the people I deny it too...
Recently I have started to suspect some members of a local church have been gossiping about this secret, as they suspect it. And that saddens me, because these people are the ones that should, in my opinion, be loving, is that not what Jesus told us to do?
I love everyone regaerdless of what or who you are. I will never judge you for ANYTHING!!!! I am tired of being a joke to some people, I am tired of being afraid to be me.
I will say this about the gossip girls and guys. I will include anyone else that dislike me...I love you, because I am supposed to love you. I would physically break anyone in half if they ever hurt any of you. I would fight to my death to keep all of you out of harms way.
That is what I believe GOD wants from us. Not all of the gossip and pot stirring and judgements that abound....Think about that for today folks.
Happy Saturday!!!!!
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Don't get me started on gossip.....I loath it. Keep your head up and always remember that "those who have NO sin or problems in their life (should) be the first to cast a stone". Not sure where that is in the bible, but it's there in black and white. People need to realize that their personal opinions are only validated by themselves, and or whatever fool takes it as fact. Otherwise, keep all judgements to the Lord.
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