I have been busy lately. One thing I have promised my trainer that I would do is post on this blog at least 2 times per week and make a list of the things I am proud of and happy about each week...Its hard to find the time to even workout, much less post a blog and make lists, take the trash out keep the dog occupied, pay bills be a Dad, date and work two jobs and sleep and stay positive...There has to be a way to find an equilibrium in all that mess (my hand is in the stop position making a circular motion while I say “all that mess” in my head, as if I am in a Madea movie)!
The truth ... I am burning the candle at both ends and need to either blow the candle out or use a stronger wick!
It’s so easy to say, I’m just going to call in today, or let’s sleep 5 minutes longer, or the dog can wait a few more minute…It’s easy to go by a Wendy’s fatburger or a McKill-me Big Artery clogger than it is to plan meals and pack food. It saves time to let the bills pile up and pay them on your next day off, (a month later) It’s not that hard to fall asleep with your clothes on, forget to put on deodorant and shave with instant oatmeal because you can’t take 5 minutes to go pick up shaving cream, and does the dog really need treats when a hand full of dog food can do the same thing? Let’s not forget to mention that I haven’t seen my daughter in two months!!!
I AM Tired
I have been busy lately…
My daily schedule starts at 5am…I wake and instantly feed the dog and put him in the yard for his play time with the critters that I can’t see cause its still dark…Then I workout, intensely (thank you Daniel), this workout wakes me up and is probably the biggest motivating event of my day. I eat my oatmeal and egg, drink an airborne and shower, put the dog in his kennel for naptime (cause it’s his favorite thing), then I go to work, at 7am…I sit here, and I think, about work, I market myself, I drive around handing out flyers and business cards, I book appointments, I clean the salon, I organize my life and I blog (:}) and I basically wait for my business to grow, which it is, at a fantastic rate, thanks to people like Jon and Joy Garner, Elizabeth Verdell Walter and Emily Rogers, and Kim Stevens, Robbie Flatford and Kaye Dillard and Aaron Creech and Dean Sewell and my parents…(just to name a few). They have been with a lot of other people (that I WILL recognize eventually as time goes by)by spreading the word about us and sending us their friends, LOVE YOU GUYS. I sit here early tying to get traffic from the very busy road that runs next to the salon…I sit here and do all of that, and do my appointments as well until 2pm each day when I pack up and go to work at another full time job until 9 pm. I then spend time with the dog, my folks, or on the phone with people I have been trying not to neglect and one person recently in particular that I am trying to get to know better. I do that till about eleven or twelve midnight. Then I go to bed for what feels like a few minutes and I get up and do it all again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My days run together and I feel so worn down that I just wanna go back to the “It’s so easy to say” paragraph and give up!!!
I am TIRED!!!
I Have been very busy lately!!!
Then I remember something… No matter how tired I feel, no matter how busy I am, no matter how scared or depressed or anxious or terrified I might be… IN EVERY SINGLE ASPECT OF MY LIFE…someone or something is depending on me to keep going, Cesalee, Cooper, my folks, my sisters my friends, my readers, my clients, my bank my bill collectors and my own damn self!
As I come to this realization, I raise my head and look out at the beautiful sunshine and the awesome day ahead of me, and I find a smile through the sleepiness, and I find renewed motivation to get through yet another day of “non-stop interstate JOURNEY traffic”!
Can I get an AMEN?!?!?
CAN I GET AN AMEN?!?!?!
Have a great day, and if you’re having the same issues I am right now, take a look at the blue sky outside and remember that there are people under that blue sky dying to keep your blue skies safe enough for you to be tired under…If that does not work, go get some damn coffee and shut the heck up!!!
So I have choosen to use a stronger wick, to use the slower burning candles and to keep plenty of fuel nearby in case the flame goes out on me! But friends, I gotta be honest, I need your help!!!
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