Why am I still trying!!??

What are some of the reasons we give others as to why we stop caring so much about our health?
What are some of the excuses we give others as to why we stop caring about our well being?

I have spent years starting to care about how I look and feel and then I just stop caring. I still to this day don’t know why I do that. I also don’t know what is happening this time that is so different than all of the other times when I did not succeed.

Every time I think I want to give in and go get a Big stinky Mac, or a Milk Death Shake, I add a word to it to make me think twice about it…I don’t think that is it though.,,

Every time I make a big meal I cut a portion out of it and freeze the rest so I won’t eat more than I should… I don’t think that is why though.

Every time I see the size thirty-six jeans (thanks Aaron and Dean) hanging in my dining room, it reminds me that I am only three sizes away from wearing them, but I don’t think that is either.

Every time I go to work and forget to take my lunch I think about just ordering from the Mexican restaurant next door, but instead I go get some yogurt and fruit, but I don’t think that’s it either.

Every time I think I might not get up and work out I lay out my workout mat and weights before I go to bed. It leads me to work out in the am and I feel guilty if I put it away and don’t work out…But I don’t think that’s it.

Every time I want to sleep in and forget the workout and the morning routine, I say to myself, “GET THE HELL UP ROBERTO!!! (Nope not the reason either)

Every time I think I might give up I think of this blog and the people that read what I write and I don’t ever want to let them down, but that’s not it either.

Every time I see a pic of Cesalee I realize that I can only be a good example to my kid if I am alive to be a good example to my kid, but that isn’t the reason either, DAMMIT!!

I don’t know what the reason could possibly be as to why I am so different and why my life has become so different.

I can’t figure out why I am continuing to lose weight. I don’t get why I still care and I certainly don’t get why any of you are still interested…Until I read all of the things above.
1. I don’t eat fast food anymore
2. I don’t eat more than I should
3. I have a goal, several actually, and those jeans are part of that goal
4. I stay on target when I can and even though I still have my weak moments, I still do the best I can
5. I am seeing big changes in my body from the size of my arms, the size of my neck to the size of my biceps all the way to the size of my, well, I will let you guess what I am talking about, everything is changing for the better and I will NEVER stop working out, especially since I have a great guy like Daniel training me to be better than I ever knew I could be.
6. There are only 24 hours in each day and I sleep long enough, I don’t want to ever miss a thing because I want to sleep late!
7. This blog is part of my vast support system, people are counting on me and I am helping people like me believe in themselves and be the people they were meant to be!
8. I NEVER want my fat ass to be the reason I leave Cesalee. I have won too many physical battles from diabetes and blood pressure issues to Leukemia and by GOD, fat isn’t gonna take me from the Earth!

So you see, it isn’t any of those things that keep me going, ITS ALL OF THEM! And much much more!!!

I want to keep my life going and I want to live better and feel better every day, and I want you to join me!
I love you all and can’t wait to hear from you!!!