I have been typing for almost an hour and a half. And I just erased the whole post because I haven’t the courage to say what I want to say. I was allowing a situation to upset me and hinder my journey and I am now aware of it. I learn more about myself through typing the words I feel than I do by thought. It is amazing to me how I can do that.I am also amazed that I am going to handle this a little differently than normal, instead of begging or obsessing, I am going to try and motivate myself and you all, and then I am letting it all go, FOREVER!!!
I am going to make a post. I am not going to add a picture, or be silly. I am however going to say that this Journey I am on right now is pretty damn important to me. It is more important than my feelings about any one part of the old Rob. I AM different, NEW! I am growing, becoming stronger and I don’t need to react or act the way I did before, for even one minute, or for even one person.
My core belief system is intact, my ideals and desires have not gone away, fact is, they have come to light. What was important still is and the love I share is still as strong as ever!
I am still me! STRONGER!
Some things, however have changed, I will not beg, I will not give in to the gluttony that created the 450 pound monster I was, I will not view myself as a failure and I will NEVER be sorry for changing for my health and my future! NEVER GIVE UP!
Read into this post if you want, try and figure out why I typed it and tell me if you understand. But most of all, FEEL THIS WAY TOO!!! The best relationship you will ever know is the one you have with yourself!
Love to you all!
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