My talk with Mr. Kay!!!

Well folks, after a long day of quiet time, and a talk with my parents and a talk with some friends I feel a lot better about the crap that has happened over the past week, and I realize that it was all really just that, CRAP.
I also did some extreme soul searching and I have come to the realization that I am really disappointed in myself, I’ll explain… I am not where I feel like I need to be in my life, physically, mentally, and spiritually. Is that not precisely why I am on this journey to begin with? Is that any different than realizing that my weight was going to kill me? It’s taken me six months to get half way to my weight loss goal and I am certainly not going to get to my mental goal any faster than that!
As it turns out, My career goal IS achievable I am just going to have to work a little harder for it, and over time, with a little financial planning, I will get to my BIG goal, I have to mentally be ready for more change coming in the near future, but I am ready and I know that these changes will get me to my ultimate goal, just a few years later…(exactly what my sister and one of my good friends has been trying to tell me for a while now).
So all of the above is great and all that, but what really made me stop and think this week was this 97 year old man that drove himself to the salon I work in and looked to be maybe 70 years old and was in great health and had clear skin and was not the slightest bit shaky, He told me of his 6 children and his deceased wife and how when she died when he was 67 he decided his life wasn’t over and moved to SC from New Jersey to be near three of his sons, one is a professor at Wofford, “a doctor that cant heal you of a darn thing”, he joked. He lives alone and takes care of himself and was doing a fantastic job.
I asked this man what his secret to long health living was and he said, “No secret son, I just realized one day after raising 6 kids and rocking in the chair on the back porch with my wife, through all the struggles and all the troubles, I was never going to win, and the reason was, life is no contest.” He went on to tell me that he believes our failures and successes are not always rewarded in our lifetime, and perhaps our children would reap the benefits of being raised properly by us, It helped me to understand the “sins of the Father” story in the bible a little better. I might not live the material life I want, but the things I teach my daughter might cause me to be successful in her life and she might be more able to reach her earthly and spiritual goals because of the things she learned from me; not to hate, to help fight social stupidity and to love boundless and borderless. She might be able to pursue her dreams because of the things I have given her mind, not her pocketbook. He told me that once he realized these things, he stopped fighting the battles he could not win and his life became free of anger and stress and he thinks that is why he continues to live, and he had no plans to stop either.
Mr. Kay gave me hope, He showed me that I’m not as old as I think I am, that 37 isn’t the end, it isn’t the middle and it certainly isn’t unique. Everyone will turn 37 at some point and I still could live sixty more years if God allowed me too…and that conversation changed my outlook on my whole week…I hope it helps you too!