Sometimes trying to stay positive and in a good mood all the time can be quite hard. Sometimes you are just going to have a crappy morning, or bad things are going to happen. How do you react when they do happen and what do you do to put yourself right again?
I have spent years going straight to the couch with a snack, or resorting to other less than “good” things to pull myself out of my funk instead of trying to help things along with a good workout or a walk or even simple meditation.
I had one of these moments last night. I woke up early today thinking about how a bad mood after a conversation that got me worked up would affect the rest of my week. I am going to have to work twice as hard now to get back to good and it’s all because I spent the evening dwelling on a five minute, one sided conversation that I had with some friends at dinner. The funny thing is that the person I should have this conversation with is probably the last person I will ever have the conversation with. It is all because I am too worried about upsetting someone else that I end up depressed and down and that’s what triggers my “couch eating”. I rationalize it and I accept that it as ok because I am in this “mood”.
I am not the same person that I was just six months ago. Last night for me was a glimpse into the person I left behind and the fact that he still appears like that from time to time scares me. It makes me feel like my grip on the controlled health and the healing process for my life is loose, and that pisses me off!
Two of the hardest things to learn on this journey are that;
1. Physically we are alone, ultimately we are responsible for every choice we make and a trainer and friends and a blog and the Facebook and family and all of the support in the world cannot protect you from you.
(notice I said physically, please don’t read spiritually here folks)
2. No matter how many times we hear or say,” this is for life not just for now”, or “this is a life change not a diet”, realizing it is a completely different thing.
So today is a completely different day and there are tons of challenges to face. I have some things at home that I have been neglecting, I need to handle some appointments and organize my calendar and I also have to work, I have enough to keep my mind busy. I also have to do my intervals and keep in mind this contest and my health, not in that order.
Here is one last thought for you this morning….
I am not going to stop driving just because I had a fender bender; However, I am going to fix the car before I get back on the road!
Have a great day and if you need me I am here!!!!
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