Forgiver and forget!!!

The last week of my life has been pretty hectic. I have been busy at work, working outside of work, and just yesterday I logged almost 1000 miles on my car driving all over the state for several different reasons costing me close to a $1000.00 as well.
Stress has been the name of my game for the past week. I tend to become a little crazy when it comes to stress and that's when I over-eat!
How do you handle stress. Do you over-eat, obsessively work out, clean like a fool?
I eat, and over the past week, I did just that! I did however manage to loose 3 pounds putting me at the 60 pound mark of my journey. I am half way to my goal and expect to encounter more stress as I get closer. Give me some ideas that can help me avoid eating to much when I stress out. I would love some pointers.
So many of you are probably wondering what my stress was about. Here is a list of my stresses over the past week.
1. Dr.appointments...I have, as many of you know, a pre-existing condition that could possible reoccur as it is a chronic cancer. I have to have bi-annual tests and a very painful bone marrow aspiration, as well as seven viles of blood and bone and CT scans. I had to drive to Myrtle beach and then to Charleston SC (twice a year) for these tests, then back home to be at work today with a hole in my leg the size of a peanut and pain the size of Mount Rushmore.
2. Child Support...because I have to pay for my blood work and scans and aspirations up front, I had to put off my child support last year. My support is now paid in full and in advance, but last year it got a little behind. The court wanted me to show cause. When I arrived at court my case was dismissed because the fine and support had been brought current and I left with no incident.
3. My bills and job situation...I am working in a salon that I love, with people I respect and adore. I have been there for a year and a half, and even though it is in an area of the state where people automatically think negatively of me for being a stylist, and a man, I do love the girls I work with and have come to really love my clients.
My bills however are not being paid as quickly as they should and I am spiraling (especially after forking out close to 1000 big ones for my day of tests and courts)out of control. I am working outside of my job to make extra money doing hair, and other things, to get where I need to be. The bottom line and point of this issue is this, I am drowning, and the only person that can change it is me...(more to come in coming weeks about that.
4. tiredness, if that is even a word. I am sleeping less, working more, driving too much, struggling to get all i need to get done, and trying to be, husband and wife and father and friend and son and stylist and blogger and inspiration and motivation to others, and lately all I want to do is sleep.
5. Fear...of going to jail for being behind on my support to my ex-wife and dear friend, who depends on me to help take care of our daughter. Guilt, for the same thing...Sadness over the life I have allowed myself to live for the past twenty years...petrification, of being told that my cancer has returned and that it is advanced. (thankfully, i am fine and the tests were just routine) and finally, humiliation that I had to burden my friends and family with all of these things that were completely my fault (to which I received a ton of help, mostly from my folks)
I think the trick to dealing with these types of stress, (and no the answer is not XanaX, although it can help)is to forgive myself. Look back over this post and read about what I have typed...these are all things that have happened in my life that I blame myself for...Some I am responsible for, others are in the hands of my creator. Some I can fix and control, some I can only accept and learn to live with. but in all of these things, the simplest way to move forward, is to just forgive myself.
Have you ever forgiven yourself? I know we expect others to forgive our misdeeds. I know we want to forgive others for theirs too. How often though do we forgive ourselves for the things we do to harm our health or mental stability.
Lets try to wake up evety day smiling, no matter what is going on, let's be thankful to be alive and take whatever is coming our way, if it knocks us down, get back up, if you eat to much of something, get back on track tomorrow, if you tell it off, ask for it to forgive you.
Have a happy Wednesday, more to come then!!!