Last night I was filled with fear and doubt over a situation I had no control over. After that we had a severe Thunderstorm that knocked down trees and cut the power at 2am. The wind was bad, so bad in fact that it reminded me of a hurricane. So, what, you ask,did I do? Well, I grabbed a granola bar and the jar of peanut butter and finished my day 12 points over my target, in weight watchers lingo, that is pretty bad, but forgivable.
I woke up today a little groggy, but started a new job that appears to be what I have been looking for. I am going to make more money right away, I am excited about the possibility of saving more money to complete one of my financial goals and simply had a great time with the people I will be working with.
The issue that got me so upset last night, turned out in my families best interest, and all looks to be ending better than it began! Today I am much more on target and tomorrow looks even brighter!
I found an excuse to trip and let my mental state control me last night. How often in our lives do we let irrational fear and hysterics detract from our goals? Do you let fear or dread keep you from going to work? To the doctor or to a family get together that might be awkward for us? Have you ever been scared of a dog and screamed as it ran toward you, just to be licked to death? I think fear is a good thing because it keeps our emotions flowing, it heightens our senses and feeds adrenaline. Fear also, unfortunately, can be hard to control (as I currently hear more thunder getting closer and closer outside). We have to find ways to confront (safely) our fears and we also must learn ways to accept fear as part of life. Most of all for me, we should find out what triggers our fear and what turns it into a need for food...I think what eventually saved me from the peanut butter last night was my five month old puppy that needed reassurance, he stayed relatively calm, but sat in my bed, balled up at my neck shaking til he fell asleep...(any parent or animal lover can relate, it seems we have an instinct to protect things smaller and younger). I would like to one day be able to stop myself from this pitfall, any suggestions would be welcome! I feel like we all just need to remember that things do change for the better, the sun always finds its way back out and the winds do calm down...Maybe I need to write that on my hand at night before going to bed during storms!
Anyway, this was a silly post, but I somehow dont feel like I am alone in my fear and food connection
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